The Evanescent You

I cannot see your star

No matter how much I wish upon it

And my fears, as childish as they may be,

Slowly turn into that which resembles rage

Where has my heart gone?

If only I could go back to believing

But I still remember...

The warmth of the days I spent by Your side

As we laid in that silent bliss

We knew we would remember forever

Now, I pray that these memories will remain

So I don't fear loneliness, I'm not alone

I will always have you by me, love

But I know this is a dream

It must be, no, it has to be a dream

Because it will never be what I think it is

It will always remain a dream

Never real life

What I need is a reason to believe this is not real

Because I know they're all wrong

For I can see your face in the faces of others

For I can hear your voice in the crowd

Whispering, singing, and I can't love you

Any more than I already do

Although I try so hard not to think of you

I still do; when I sleep, I can see you

When I look in the mirror, I see your face

You take my hand and kiss me

Does that mean you love me?

Does it mean you're taking over me?

And I run to you, calling your name

But every time I do, I see you so far from me

There is a deep and vast ocean between us

So I try to forget you, but without you I feel nothing

And I'm drawn to you yet again

The cycle repeats itself

I try to reach you, but I cut myself

I shatter into so many little pieces

Then I wish to breathe no more

Because I wonder, which do you love:

Myself or my reflection?

So I breathe my last, and you hold me fast

In your arms, you ask me if I can feel you

If I can hear you

And you say you know I can hear you

Because of the sorrowful taste of my tears

In the end, we say goodbye

"Don't be afraid" you tell me one last time

Slowly you fade into the ocean of darkness

But I can still hear you calling me

Calling me

Calling me...